NEW NEWS:

While I am remaining ever positive, there is some news that I need to share that is not so sunny. Of course, we cannot see the big picture from where we sit, and I trust that God holds me exactly where I am supposed to be.

Rick and I have decided to separate. While this is initially causing some added stresses, I know in my heart that in the long run, it is what is best for all three of us. We are still sorting out the details and I will, of course, post here when I have more to share.

On the medical front, the numbers- yes, the very ones I chose to ignore- are not looking good. My doc is ordering another CT scan asap so we can learn more. He wants to try me on another, gentler round of chemo, now that I am stronger. I am considering it and as always, offering it all up to God to guide my way.

You may notice the google ads on the home page. It is an experiment. I am unable to work and my disability is pretty meager (based on years working for peanuts in the theatre!) so I am looking for ways to create a bit of income through this website. The ads are all specific to my beliefs and path (and if you ever see anything that you think is up there in error, please alert me via email!), and generate income for me with each and every click. So, as a real easy way to help show your support, please consider clicking on the ads to the right. If you have other ideas, I am open to hearing them! 

Please keep your positive support coming my way. I sure can use every smile, every embrace, every prayer.

With Boundless Gratitude~

xoxo

Kalena

A bit of background…

On July 10th 2007, I was diagnosed with stage IV metastatic breast cancer. “Terminal” was stamped on my forehead. I have always been something of a rebel. I refused to listen. I refused to give in to someone else’s limitation of me. I immediately began to count my blessings, reach for the Joy. I began to expect miracles and I now see them on a daily basis.

I have shared much of my journey in what I call my Living Journal. Over the past few months I have written my observations about gratitude, Joy, receiving, being in the moment, taking the oars out of the water and standing in the truth… And I find the more I learn, the less I know. These are hard lessons and I think we keep on learning them and relearning them over and over until we return “home.” So I will continue making mistakes and hopefully learning from them.

And I will continue writing. It serves as the springboard for the book that I am currently creating about my own exciting search for truth and unconditional love.

Although I am grateful for the blessings brought on by the diagnosis, I no longer identify myself with this dis-ease. I see how my life is all a part of a greater picture and the pieces are beginning to come into focus.

Meanwhile I intend to inspire others to take action over personal health issues and to always REACH FOR THE JOY. Today is a brand new day- a new opportunity to start fresh, to be present, to let go of what does not serve.

You don’t need cancer to take a DO-OVER with your life!

Namaste -

Kalena Puanani von Schnier
pure beautiful flower*

*The lotus, an ancient spiritual symbol, rises from the sludge of muddy pools to blossom into purity and spiritual awakening. The original meaning behind my name is “pure beautiful flower.” What a fitting image for the life I have led to this day.

“There is no state of physical decline or damage that you could not recover from–none–not any, if you knew it… If you wanted it and knew that you could. And that’s those miracles that they talk about every day. They’re not miracles at all, they are the natural order of things. But because they are rare, people think they are miraculous. They’re not. That’s the way it is supposed to be. You’re supposed to thrive. All is well.”
- Abraham